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Mustache May. I've never grown facial hair but it grows pretty fast for me. People have said I should try to grow something before but I thought I should get some friends to do this and have some fun. Jeff, Jordan, Roemer, Robbie, and a few others and I are doing it. Dave and Owen are growing chops. I think I am the only one just going pure stache. I'm excited for a sweet mustache. It's coming in hot. By next next Monday I think it will be in full effect.
Prom is tomorrow and I'm not going. I was going to hang out with Marlee but she's going to Kentucky for Dyami's graduation. Oh well. What happens tomorrow is that we have this huge presentation tomorrow that includes driving a golf cart with "beer goggles" on and a helicopter demonstration. Then everyone leaves at noon to get ready for the prom..but I stay in school because my mom would not let me skip tomorrow. Then I proceed to have literally no one in all my classes. I think I'm going to be the only one in my English class. Oh well again.
Speaking of the Delias, last weekend I went to Philly to go to a bat mitsvah. Everyone is rich in Northern Philly. Everyone. The whole mitsvah, they easily dropped at least like 20-30K. Her family is kind of stuck up though. There were nice people but I think that all of them having money for so long has tainted them. It didn't help that I just met all these people and I am "invading" a family event, but I was invited. Most people were nice and I had a lot of fun, got a lot of free stuff, and ate amazing food.
I have a lot of upcoming DJ gigs. I am so excited! I have 4 in the month of May/first days of June. One is in Buffalo which is 3 hours away, one is at my school's battle of the bands, one is in the middle of the woods, and one is at a nightclub in Syracuse. All playing different styles! I'm so glad I can finally play out in front of people.
There's only around a month and a half left of school. I graduate on June 25th or something like that. A bunch of those days aren't really days since I have a physics field trip to Darien Lake, senior trip, and some other senior things to do. It should be enjoyable. I can't wait to get out of here. This summer should be a nice time to hang out, do what I want, and have the best of times. Senior year kind of sucked with a bunch my friends moving away and stuff like that. I started hanging out more and more with friends that I had younger or the same age as me and it worked out. I'm glad at the way senior year lasted, it wasn't as painful as I thought it would be.
Not much has been going on. I've been spending a lot of money on records, everything has been great. I can't complain.
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[04 Apr 2009|10:07pm] |
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Today I visited SUNY New Paltz. I was never a huge fan of that school but my parents really like it. Today was just like the last time we visited around Halloween time, I think I made an update around then. Anyways, there were a lot of people from the NYC/Long Island area. Same place though, right? There was this dad in a tour of a dorm and he was asking like a million dumb questions. Side note, he was also wearing a bluetooth headset. One of his questions was how the water is because it is "upstate water." I lol'd at that, so did my parents. They proceeded to make fun of this guy the entire day. The school itself was good. I would totally go there if New Paltz wasn't in the middle of no where. The town is pretty small and there doesn't seem a lot to do. This girl took the kids of the tour around without parents and I asked the girl giving us a tour what there is to do off campus. She replied with a movie theatre, bars, and other random things but what I got from that was there isn't that much else to do but drink. I don't care that much if people drink or whatever but it bothers me when it seems like that is all there is to do. I guess its just my fear of going there, not making any friends, hating the town, and wanting to leave constantly. I feel that if I go to Poly or WIT then if I hate the school I at least have NYC or Boston to fall back on. I bet I would be fine at New Paltz but personally I'd rather go to Poly or WIT.
Next week I have a four day week. On Friday morning my mom and I are driving to CT to get on a plane to Dallas. From there we are meeting up with my dad who would be finishing up training and going to Las Vegas. I don't really want to go since what the fuck am I supposed to do, but it should be alright anyways. Anywhere but here is fine, I guess. We leave on Thursday and go back to CT to drive to Boston. The next day I visit WIT again, hang out with Marlee, and go see a sox game at fenway. It should be a great vacation.
My friends sucks. The only time they'll ever hang out with me is if I invite them to do something or make the plans myself. It's fucking stupid. I don't really have a lot to say about that but I'm just frustrated. They are cool to hang out with, it's just getting them to hang out. Whatever, really.
I need to start updating this more. It's easy not to.
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[20 Mar 2009|10:52pm] |
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Ten things I'm into.
01. Having a three day weekend.
02. Classical music
03. Hard Dance
04. Girl friend
05. Doing absolutely nothing all day.
06. I'm seeing Pulling Teeth on Sunday.
07. Getting a Permanent - Sink|Swim test press for around $40 shipped.
08. Getting Life Long Tragedy - Destined For Anything test press and on white along with a record release copy of their split for around $130 shipped.
09. Having the option to go to school at NYU Poly, Wentworth in Boston, SUNY Buffalo, or SUNY New Paltz.
10. SU basketball
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[08 Feb 2009|11:16am] |
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It sucks to feel completely alone. Not having a friend that gives a shit about me is catching up to me. Having the person you care most about 350 miles away is sometimes gets to you.
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[02 Jan 2009|10:36am] |
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The 2008 Awards.
Album Of The Year: Lemuria - Get Better
Film Of The Year: Wall-E
Show Of The Year: Boris and Torche for obvious reasons. Best Syracuse show was either Achilles and Tides in January or Rosetta over the summer.
Time Of The Year: Boris and Torche adventure with Jeff. No questions asked.
Song Of The Year: Evil Activities - No Place Left To Hide
Accomplishment Of The Year: I feel that since last year I have taken my life into my owns hands a lot more than it was before. Gaining a lot of confidence from everything that has happened this year is probably my greatest accomplishment.
Surprise Of The Year: Playing that picnic party in May tied with getting into a college of NYU.
Friend Of The Year: Jeff
Season Of The Year: Summer. Being able to hang out with a bunch of people and the fun things we did and everything else made it a summer of legends.
Drink Of The Year: Sierra Mist Cranberry
Mix Of The Year: Reese - Fall 2008 Mix. Redeyes - January 2008 Mix is a close second.
Producer Of The Year: Reese
Best Food: That quesadilla I had at the airport in Chicago when I was going to Atlanta. Or that sushi place in Armory Square.
Accidental ganja brownies. Electro-Off '08, loser is gay. Dinner is sooner than later. Face tats. Johanna bringing the mosh, forever. NANTUCKET!!! Trance pants, Tiesto is afraid. Sneaking into SU's orientation, getting on tv, and "Illinois? We live around here." Fvcking trannies. Monkies throwing poop. I'm going to make you wish you've never been born. From Armory Square to Argentina to NYC to Atlanta to Boston, this year has been too great. The Ergs, Lemuria, Slingshot Dakota, and Nancy in Binghamton in February. Achilles, Another Breath, White York, and Black & White Children in Oswego. The Aggrolites and Mustard Plug in April. Fatter Than Albert early July. Rosetta in July. Attica! Attica! and Nancy at 560 in August with Marlee. The Knockdown and Jena Berlin in August at the WCC with Marlee.
This year has been awesome. Thanks to everyone for making it a dream. I never knew I could be this happy. I hope I've made as much as an impact on you as you have had on me.
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[07 Nov 2008|07:57pm] |
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This has been one of the longest weeks of my life. I can barely remember some of the stuff that happened on Monday and Tuesday. School is getting much harder and I wasn't ready for it. The past 11 years of my life I've never had to study for a test or anything like that, I've just gotten by with paying attention in class. Now that I actually have work to do I am realizing that my work ethic sucks and I need to fix that asap.
For the past week I've been waking up around 6am or earlier and not being able to go back to sleep. It sucks and it is really weird since I've been going to bed at the same time. After school I've been pretty tired so I've been taking naps afterwards. Yesterday after my nap I felt like shit. Don't you hate when that happens? Naps are so sweet and to have them backfire on you is such a shame.
Tomorrow I'm going to Boston! My parents and I are leaving around 9am or so they tell me. It is around a 5 hour drive there. Our hotel is 20 minutes outside of Boston. After we get there I hope to meet up with Marlee and my parents said they want to take us out to dinner. I wasn't really sure but my father made it sound like we could go wherever after that. I was hoping to see the school where Marlee goes, Northeastern, but I'm down for anything. Regardless if things don't turn out the way I want them too, I still get to see Marlee which will be nice. She is coming home in around two weeks anyways so it won't matter if I don't get to see her as much as I would like. The next day I am going to an open house at Wentworth IT. I invited Marlee to tag along but I'm not sure if she's going to accept. She would have to wake up early and all that stuff. I'm also not really sure of our plan, as to if I could see her after that. Like I said earlier, I still get to see her in two weeks after so I won't be crushed.
I have a four day weekend! The school is giving us Monday off. Hopefully something else will go down since I am returning from Boston on Sunday.
Aside from being overwhelmed with work, things have been going great.
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[31 Oct 2008|09:08pm] |
I am currently in downstate NY in a hotel on a laptop and I'm really bored so I thought I might as well write in here.
Not a whole lot has happened since the last time I wrote in here. I have been to a few good shows and those were all fun. Last weekend I went to two shows. Ruiner and FC Five on Friday night. Afterwards I went to see horror movies with Johanna. The Return Of The Living Dead and some other zombie movie. They were both great films and I was surprised I stayed for both of them. The films ended at 3am and I got home around 3:30 and my mom was pretty cheesed off but whatever, I had a really good night! The next day I decided to go to Devil's Night Out because Katie and Roxanne were both going to be there and I really wanted to see them. I did not care about any of the bands, I just wanted to see them. I get there 10 minutes early and Katie is already there so I catch up with her around ten minutes until the first band started. Then we danced for a while and Roxanne showed up and we all danced and it was good fun. Afterwards Doug comes up and starts talking to me. I haven't seen Doug in a long time so it was nice to say a few words to him. After that Katie and Roxanne went somewhere so I started talking to Johanna for a little bit at the door. Then I see Katie and Roxanne walk out with their coats. I thought they were just going to go out to eat or something and I thought about going with them but if they didn't ask if I wanted to go I'm not going to tag along. Anyways, they don't come back for another two hours and I'm pretty steamed at that moment since I drove to Syracuse and paid to get into this show just to see them. I texted Roxanne to see if they were going to be back and she was like "We are lost and probably aren't going to be back for the show." Fucking great, you know? I honestly should have seen this coming from a mile away. I actually thought about this beforehand, like what if they never showed up or something, but whatever. I'm not even going to go into detail about my feelings. Pretty fucking shitty but whatever, I give up.
Sunday was great. Skalloween was that night but I had a big radio show planned with Louth that night that I didn't feel like pushing it back later. We spammed a lot and made a facebook event and tried to get everyone to listen. Before I started playing we got over 40 listeners, the most people I've ever played to! I was very shocked and it made me a little nervous for the 2 minutes before the show. We got up to 55 listeners or so when I was playing which is great for the timeslot I have. Usually I get around 20 listeners for my Weekend Wrapup show on Krafty. It was really fun, we both played great sets and everyone had fun. It was a memorable night and I'm glad I skipped Skalloween to play. I had already seen Sonic Boom Six and Deal's Gone Bad before so it wasn't much to be missed. A very good night.
Today for senior Halloween I dressed in all black and wore a black wig and ipod headphones and danced around a lot. A lot of people asked what my costume was but once I told them I was from the ipod commercials they found it funny. Most of the costumes sucked. The sort of costumes that if no one told me who they were trying to be, I would have had no idea what they were going for. A group did characters from Candyland. Another the characters from Clue. The junior high band and chorus were having a concert at the time and it caught me off guard but we walked across stage one by one to show off our costumes. Everyone cheered at me as I danced around, it was pretty cool. Then we went to the elementary school and I danced around in front of little kids and they were probably pretty fightened and confused. After that my parents got me out of school and we drove to SUNY New Paltz and took a tour. The school itself is pretty nice but I'm not fond of it's location. It's sort of in the middle of no where. I might still apply but that would be my way backup school. After that we drove to a hotel 30 minutes away and Uncle Rick drove down from Syracuse so we went out to dinner. At dinner they mostly just told me stories from the Air Force Academy since the three adults at the table graduated from there. Dinner was nice and now I'm wasting time on the internet. Tomorrow we are going to watch the Air Force football team play Army. It will be a fun game to watch. The rivalry between the academies is insane. People go mental over this stuff. It will be a good game to watch too. Too bad this is sort of a waste of a weekend.
Next week I'm going to Boston to visit a school...and Marlee!!! I am driving there with my parents on Saturday so I will get Saturday to do something with Marlee and my parents. We will probably go out to dinner. Afterwards, it would be ideal if Marlee took me to her school, Northeaster, and showed me around and stuff. That would be fun. I hope my parents would be down with that. On Sunday I would take a tour of Wentworth IT and then probably bounce. I have Monday and Tuesday off too so it will be a long weekend. I am excited to see Marlee again and visit the college that is #1 on my list right now. It is in a big city, like I always wanted. I am not basing my college choice on where Marlee is. I think WIT is a great school for the price, in the perfect spot in a big city like I've always wanted. Even if Marlee and I break up before I go to school, that won't make my college choice a bad one. I would still get the same amount out of school together or broken up with Marlee. Next weekend should be fun. I am looking forward to it. Then two weeks later Marlee comes home for Thanksgiving so it will be nice to see her again after that.
I am probably going to bed around 10pm tonight since I am really bored. No one is around to talk to and the internet has lost its appeal after 2 hours of already being on it. I will start trying to make entries more regularly.
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[19 Oct 2008|12:28pm] |
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I will give a rundown of last weekend and then go on to more recent stuff.
Marlee came back on Thursday. I went to her house right after school. We watched Evan Almighty and then I left because it was Rashsha*(fl$sdfk aka that jewish holiday so she ate dinner with her family and I was home. Then we met up later and watched The Office. I remember it being a great episode. The next day after school I met up with Marlee, Caitlin, and Rebecca at the soccer game. Marlee and I then ate some pizza and then watched the homecoming football game. It was one of my first football games and it was pretty fun. She caught up with a lot of people and it was nice to see everyone again. We left early and went back to my house for a while. The next day we went to the Apple Festival and ate some sweet food. I made a reference to Craig knocking over a baby while playing volleyball at someone's graduation party and then we saw him there! We talked with him for a while and budged this huge line to get apple fritters. From there we went back to Marlee's house and went in her hot tub. From there we wanted to go see a movie so we were going to see Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist in Cortland but I had to go to the bathroom and I was in there for a while so we would have been late to that movie so instead we went to Carousel. The movie was pretty good. It was like Juno but better. It is a very good date movie. After that we ate some Chinese food and went back to her house and hung out for the rest of the night. On Sunday we hiked up Song Mountain. It was really nice. We then went back to my house and my mom made us dinner. Then we went to the movie store and then I wanted to go for a drive so I drove around 8 minutes up Truxton Hill. We rented Into The Wild and it was a great film. A little lengthy but I enjoyed it. Monday we hung out for a while and then went to half priced sushi night in Armory Square in downtown. Then we went back to her house for around an hour, hung out, said our goodbyes, and then I left. It wasn't as hard to say goodbye as it was the first time.
This weekend has been alright. Friday night I didn't really do anything. At all. Saturday I worked with Jerry. Jerry is the most random guy ever and made work not so bad. After work I got some pizza and went to the soccer game. I sat with Caitlin and Cody and chatted it up with them. They sort of invited me to this foreign exchange student's party tonight. I thought about it and I didn't have anything else to do so I decided I would go. Well, that was a bad choice. It was in the middle of no where in Otisco and it was not fun at all. There were a lot of kids that are two years younger than me there. There was a bunch of kids my age there but no one who I felt the need to talk to. I spent around 45 minutes there and then I left. As I was leaving Jeff and Jordan just got there but I didn't really care. I don't think it was worth it, I was already pissed off and disappointed. That party made me realize how alone I am in Tully. Even moreso than before. Having someone you really care about 500 miles away only accounts for so much. Today I've really been missing Marlee. I guess its just one of those days. Tonight I am going to the annual sing along show but I'm not really looking forward to it for some odd reason. I think I am just feeling lonely. We'll see what happens, hopefully that show will put me in a good mood.
Other than feeling alone, things have been wonderful.
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[06 Oct 2008|05:14pm] |
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+Marlee is coming home this Thursday for the three day weekend. Thursday night we are going to watch The Office. Friday night I will be attending my first high school football game under the lights at my school. Monday night I will be getting sushi at that sweet place in Armory. That's all we have planned so far.
+Tomorrow is "retro day" for homecoming and everyone wears 80's clothes but a couple of my friends and I are going to take it way back and wear togas.
+Actually doing stuff on the weekends. Two weekends ago I went to Jess Frey's house for a get together, last weekend I took saw Eagle Eye with Jeff and Roemer.
+Lots of vinyl purchases.
+School has been going by alright. It isn't as painful as it was in the beginning. I guess I am just adjusting to everything.
+Life.
-I have a lot of work to do this week. 25 notecards by Wednesday for a research paper, reading the rest of a book, getting my English project mostly done, and lots of precalc.
-Not being able to sleep in.
-Having no money.
-Boring school days.
-I can't think of anymore bad things.
I guess you could say that everything is pretty great. Except having work and having to worry a little bit about college stuff, I would say everything is great.
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[04 Sep 2008|07:01pm] |
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I have an urge to write in here now so I will try to tell everything.
Summer is over. Boo hoo. But really, summer had been the greatest time of my life. Having things work out with friends, girls, and everything else feels great. I would never have imagined how great the summer could be and how much my life could change because of it. I can't give a day to day or anything that happened in the last few weeks but I don't need to. It's just been awesome.
Marlee leaving was tough. I ordered her this shirt http://mission.omakedesign.com/images/tshirts/energyshirts/NewitemsforweblateNov006.jpg It was only $8 and I ordered it with another shirt I got so it was no biggie. Too bad it didn't come in before she left so I will have to give it to her another time. I also made her a mixed cd and wrote her a cheesy note about how much I appreciate her. We hung out at my house and then went to her house for dinner. Her parents invited me and I guess it was one of Marlee's favorite meals, some kind of soup and pasta. The soup was pretty generic but the pasta was good. Then we chilled, I helped her with some computer problems, and said goodbye and left. It didn't hit me at the time that I wouldn't be able to see her for the next few months. The next morning, my first day of school, I was actually pretty sad about it. Also today I was a little sad for around 20 minutes or so but then I forgot about it. All of this will just make seeing her again in a few months even better. She got a webcam so we're going to talk on there from time to time. I don't think it will be that bad. She's impacted my life so much that it doesn't mean THAT much being away from her. I'm fine with just talking with her.
School is alright. I realized this year without all the seniors from last year I have no friends. Like the first day I was one of the first people at the assembly since my homeroom teacher just let us walk around beforehand so I got there and sat down hoping that someone would see me and sit by me. No one ever did. Lunch was pretty sad. I mostly just sat with Blaise. Blaise is a good dude and all but damn, just him? Today during lunch was better though, more people sat with us and it wasn't as bad as yesterday. I am taking Participation In Government and Economics at the same time so I can take Psychology 9th period the second semester. Usually people those two classes on opposite semesters but whatever. That might be a little more work than it should but that's okay. I have a study hall every day so that will help a lot. The work load for this year will probably be the same as last year, maybe a little more. It's kind of weird to be the oldest at your school, walking through the halls and everyone is younger than you. It's something I have to get used to, I guess.
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Things have been great.
I had this draft of just that first line saved since 08/07/08. I started writing that and then Marlee started talking to me and I eventually called her and sort of asked her out and we've been dating since. It feels great.
It feels just great. The last few weeks have been so great. Having someone that you truly enjoy spending time with and just being totally yourself around, it's amazing. I don't really have much to say about everything.
For once in my life I don't have to worry about anything. I really don't care about anything and that's probably the best feeling in the world.
I will talk about yesterday. Marlee and I went to the MOST around 3pm. We walked around the museum for two hours until it closed. There was something going on inside the MOST and in Armory Square but we had no idea. Then a bunch of buses started showing up and I texted Roxanne who goes to SU to see if it was something with Freshmen and it was. So Marlee and I decided to blend in and walk back in the MOST to see if we could get in and get free food. Well everything went fine and we got a ton of free food. Then we saw an IMAX and then walked back out into Armory. We kept walking around, found some free ice cream, participated in a parade, danced, and just had fun. It was really lucky that we got a bunch of free stuff like that and we both had a good time. After that we went back to my house and eventually at 12am we were watching the news and it had something on the event and we were on TV! It was funny.
Anyways, to the point of why I'm writing in here at 3am. Tonight I hung out with Marlee and it was just really surreal. I kept just looking at her and wondering why someone like her would be attracted to someone like me. It just seems really weird. Maybe it's something I'm not used to; the whole someone being into me thing. I don't know, it seemed really weird and maybe you won't understand but I'm really fortunate for Marlee. She's leaving for school in Boston in around a week. I'm pretty confident about us but anything can happen. I really hope we stay together but I understand if she moves on or whatever. She is at college in Boston after all. Either way I'm really fortunate she's made my summer a lot better.
I think that's all I wanted to say. Or that's all the thoughts and feelings I've been having that can be put into words.
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So a bit has changed since the last time I wrote in here. I have nothing to do now so I thought I might as well update.
Last time I wrote in here I was pissed about what happened with Marlee. That night I talked with Ryan and he calmed me down and just said to go with the flow. That was exactly what I needed to here and it made me a lot less angry at myself. I asked Marlee to go see Wall-E with me and she said yes. We went on Tuesday, I think, and it was a good time. I set up that date because hanging out with Marlee is fun, but also because I wanted to make a move. We held hands during like half of the movie and it was great. Wall-E as a film was awesome too. In my opinion it was better than Batman. It was a lot more original and enjoyable.
Marlee and I have also been talking a lot on AIM and stuff like that. It is very nice talking to her and we get along well.
On Thursday I had an idea that I was going to do a rasterbation and put it on my wall. I didn't really know what so I was looking around and I found this cool movie still from Wall-E that would be great. I was going to do everything later so I got all the pages printed out and just left them around for when I got really bored. Then Marlee came home from work and I told her about the project and I got this sweet idea that I would invite her over to help me and then we would watch The Office or something. She said yes so she came over and we put it up on my wall. It looks great. Then I showed her some of my vinyl collection which makes me a nerd, then I taught her how to spin records, which makes me more of a nerd. After that we watched The Office and cuddled. It was awesome.
Two days ago we made plans to go downtown to this sushi place and then we were going to walk around. I've never had sushi before so that will be interesting. I was also shooting around the idea of asking Marlee to be my girl friend. I still have no idea if I should or not. Marlee is going to school in Boston in a month. I don't want to put a lot of pressure on her, you know? But I also don't want to lose this opportunity, just like what happened with Ellie. We get along really well and stuff, but like I said before, I don't want to put her in a bad situation with being at school and everything. I wish this all happened a year ago. That would make this so easy. I still have no idea what to do. Yesterday I saw Chris for the first time in weeks. He asked me if I was dating Marlee and I said no, not yet. He said that he heard from Greg that we were dating and Greg must have heard from Rebecca. Rebecca is best friends with Marlee. That means Marlee must have said something about me blah blah blah blah blah. I don't know. I am really hyping this all up in my head and turning this into something that it shouldn't be. The most obvious thing would be to talk it out with her which I might have to do. I don't want to make Monday awkward or serious either. But if I don't make a move or something she will probably move on sooner or later, or sooner than I think. Fuck.
Whatever happens happens. I am trying not stressing over this too much.
Too bad I have no idea what to do.
Just go with the flow.
Right?
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I am such an idiot.
Tonight I hung out with Marlee and Bishop. First we got ice cream and then we went back to Marlee's, talked for a while, went swimming, Bishop left and then Marlee and I watched The Office for around an hour and a half. We were on a pretty small couch so we got a little close, like our bodies were touching, but we weren't cuddling or anything. I wanted to initiate the cuddling but I don't know what was stopping me. If you didn't know I have a crush on Marlee. I have been thinking about asking her out on a date or something but I am not sure if she likes me or not. Jeff told me that she used to like me a month and a half ago, but I don't know, he could have been just saying that to make me feel better. Marlee and I have been talking a lot and this is around the 3rd straight night that we've hung out. This summer we've been hanging out a lot and I would like to think we've gotten close. Anyways, she even gave me the perfect opportunity to put my arm around her or something. She was like "I am cold right now, I have goosebumps" and we just laughed or something stupid. Gosh, what was I thinking? Like a minute after i'm like "FUCK!" After a while I didn't even bother because I just thought that she would find it pathetic that I couldn't have started it sooner or something. She was trying to find out if I liked her or not and I fucking blew it. I can't believe I let that opportunity of finally being alone with her and I didn't even do something with it. I kept thinking it was the wrong time or she would have just thought it was so awkward. Fuck it. Why didn't I just do it? Now I have no choice but to ask her to see Wall-E with me sometime this week so I can cuddle with her.
I really am hopeless aren't I?
EDIT: 1:48am: Ryan just gave me some really sound advice. He told me just to not take things so seriously and just to let whatever happen, happen. I like to tell myself this often but it's hard taking advice from yourself. Let's just hope this movie works out.
Other than that things have been fantastic. I have been hanging out with Marlee, crushing on her, having a lot of fun, and just enjoying the summer. I saw Rosetta last Friday and they blew me away. They were amazing live, even better than the recording. Heavy as fuck. I loved it.
I don't really feel like explaining anything else.
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RULES:
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you 5 questions of a personal nature.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them 5 questions
I wasn't going to do this but I decided to follow the rules.
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[20 Jul 2008|11:39am] |
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Wow. The last week has been jam packed. I've done so much.
So when did I leave off? Half way through Argentina? Well, I'm not sure if I added this but we went horseback riding like an hour and a half outside of the city and it was fun. Then I got a $70 futbol jersey. It is the national team with Messi on the back. I think it is pretty cool. On the way back we got first class, again, but this time we flew right into Syracuse! I was very happy we didn't have to go to Philly or Newark and then drive home, that would have sucked.
Tuesday..this is going to take a long time to explain. It was probably the best day of my life. I had an idea about 2 months ago that I would go see Boris and Torche in Buffalo and that Chris could drive and it would be sweet. I couldn't get a hold of Chris so I got a better idea, I would drive myself and just have a sweet time. But I can't let my parents know I will be in Buffalo. If they found out they would kill me! I thought of a good plan that I would say I'm playing tennis then going to a show, then going to the movies and that would probably give me enough time. I got Jeff to go with me so it was set to be a sweet day. I left around 2:40 to pick up Jeff. The drive there was fine, nothing went wrong and it didn't seem like such a long drive with Jeff and I being funny the whole way there. Once we got inside of Buffalo we had a little hard time finding the place and finding parking. The mapquest directions were pretty much useless since it was in this part of Buffalo where there is a train on a main street so you couldn't drive right up to the venue. It only took us around 20 minutes to find our way and find parking. We get everything sorted and then we try to find somewhere to eat. We didn't want to sit down and pay a lot for food so we decided to eat in a movie theater food court. Jeff got a thing of nachos and I got Reese's Pieces. Reese's Pieces for dinner? Hell yes. I'm in Buffalo without my parents knowing and I wanted Reese's Pieces, so I got them. It's nice how that works when you're on your own. We got to the show and I wanted to see the merchandise. Boris had the Japanese version of Smile! The one that goes for like $120 on ebay! For $50! But I didn't have enough. I was about to get Jeff to lend me some money but he was totally turned off by that idea for some reason so I said fuck it and just got Torche's new record. It is a picture disc with an amazing fold out for $30. It was worth it. After that I didn't have a dollar on me. The show started an hour late which sucked for Jeff and I. The first band was a black metal band that I enjoyed. Next was Torche. HOLY SHIT! HOLY SHIT! HOLY SHIT! It was probably the greatest set from any band I've ever seen. Hands down. So good. They played my two favorites songs by them b2b the first two songs! I was in heaven. They were so loud but I was up front and couldn't hear the words so I took my earplugs out. It was so worth it. Next was Boris and they played an epic set. Not as good as Torche but they played for like an hour and a half. Some of the stuff they did was unnecessary but who cares. They mostly played everything off of Smile and also the songs Pink and Floor Shaker; two amazing songs. I saw Jeff didn't particularly enjoy Boris that much but I could care less since I'm in Buffalo. I could tell he was pretty tired and Jeff kind of sucks when he is tired. The show got done around midnight which sucked. So we walk out to our car in the parking lot and then we realize that there is no way out. All of the gates are closed and there is no parking attendant. At that point, I really had no idea what to do. From there, I drove over the parking blocks that block the parking lot from the road, that went smoothly. Then we needed to pay the $3. Jeff only had a $20 and a $50. We then walked around for the next 45 minutes trying to find anywhere that was open and we even asked some random people for $2. No dice on anything. I suggested we just leave the $20 in the envelope and then I will pay him back for it but Jeff was like "NO!" So we then moved to my car and then eventually found a Comfort Inn and we got change from them. By this time it's 1am and we still haven't left Buffalo with a 3 hour and 30 minute drive. My dad calls me and he's like "Sean, where are you?" It was late so I'm like "We're just leaving the movies........to go to Marlee's house to swim." He's like "Oh, okay, just be home soon." I hadn't even left Buffalo yet! The drive home sucked with Jeff being tired. He sucked on the way home as a co-pilot. He fell asleep, barely talked to me, and barely gave me money for extra fees like the tolls, gas, etc. I was really tired too. Driving when you're really tired sucks. Especially with your best friend asleep, not talking to you in the other seat. But I had to do what I had to do, I got myself into this and there was only one way out. There was no way I was going to fall asleep. My parents would kill me if anything happened. And that's what kept me awake. I finally get home at 4am. I think my dad heard me come in but he didn't really care. Everything went well and my parents still don't know about this. I think that automatically qualifies this as one of the best days of my life.
The next day I woke up at 9am to call work to say I was sick. I had to wait till like 9:10 before someone picked up but Joanne picked up and said she'd tell Scottie. Then for the next 40 minutes I couldn't fall asleep because I kept thinking about the parking situation and how we are going to get a $750 fine for jumping over the parking blocks and maybe we didn't pay enough. Although that could happen, it is very unlikely. I kept trying to tell myself that it won't happen and even if it did it would be totally worth it. The amount of fun I had on Tuesday is amazing. Being independent for the day and being on your own is pretty exciting. I think I fell asleep around 10 and slept till 1. From then I just chilled until I decided to go to Jill's and Andrea's graduation party. Casey was there and we talked for around an hour about Argentina since he lived there for a year. It was nice catching up with him since I haven't really had a good chance to talk to him since he was home. Their party was pretty fun, I talked with Craig and Gutt a lot.
Thursday was the day I hung out with Ellie. I thought it was going to be pretty bad but it was actually fun. We hung out and watched a movie. I should have cuddled with her but I didn't. I have a small fear about becoming too attached to her again, just to have her go out with some other dude on a whim. Her family owns like 150 acres of land so after the movie we took a hike up to this pond at the top of this big hill. It was so cool because we were so isolated from everything swimming in this pond. I had a good time. After that I left and played Audio Damage. Mr Igloo was having problems so I played for like 2 hours and 30 minutes. It was fun and I thought I played pretty well.
Friday I hung out with Ellie again. Her parents were gone and she was having a bonfire. We set up for that, went to eat some pizza, and then lit her bonfire. She has no outdoor skills at all so I had to light the fire by myself. I used to be a boy scout but that was years ago, I thought I wouldn't be able to start the fire. It took me around 10 minutes but I finally got it going. Then Ellie's best friend Sam showed up and we all sat around and talked mostly. I was getting a little bored, tired, and other people were coming so I decided to leave.
Yesterday I went to Marlee's graduation party. I think I have a crush on Marlee. The only thing that turns me off a little bit about her is that she is going to school in Boston. Jeff also told me on the car ride to Buffalo that she used to have a crush on me, along with a few other guys, in the beginning of June and the end of May. I don't know. I don't know what to do. She's really down to Earth though, probably the coolest girl I know. I really enjoy talking to her. Anyways, her party was fun. Greg was there and I talked to him for a while. He got surgery on his arm so he has been MIA for a while but he was there and it was nice to see him. For a lot of the day it was raining so we were sitting in this tent and Greg and I were trying to find the perfect combination of two jellybean flavors. We came to the conclusion that red and purple was the best that we tried. Then it stopped raining and thundering. Marlee had this inflatable slip and slide so we all started doing that. It was really cold and you crashed into the wall at the bottom really hard but it was fun. Then we went in the lake and chilled in there for a while. From there we mostly just chilled, talked, played Apples to Apples, went back into the hot tub, and played games until around 1am or so. We started playing this game where someone asked a question and we went around in a circle and answered. At that time it was just Marlee, Jeff, Dylan, Chloe G, and Marisa there. Eventually it came to tell when we had our first kiss and I didn't lie and said I've never been kissed. It was one of the first time I've ever told that to anyone face to face. It wasn't as bad as I imagined. Everyone was cool about it, haha, though I don't anyone would give me shit about it. Whatever. I had a lot of fun at her party.
Today I'm going to Bishop's graduation party for a little while then I'm going to the Sex/Vid and Mind Eraser show at the Westcott. Chloe is going to the ska show and she is leaving for Italy soon so I'm going to stop by Funk N Waffles to see her for a little while. I cannot miss seeing both Sex/Vid and Mind Eraser though so I will keep my homebase there. Can't wait for that.
Longest entry ever? I think so. So much has happened the last week so I wanted to give the internet an update.
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[08 Jul 2008|05:56pm] |
I am currently posting this from Argentina in an internet cafe. Pretty cool stuff right?¿ Buenos Ares is really cool and interesting.
I left Tully Sunday morning and drove to Newark, NJ. From there the plane was delayed quite a bit and finally I went to Chicago. In Chicago I chilled for an hour and a half. I had the greatest quasidilla I´ve ever had. I spilled a little grease on my pants but I didn´t care at all since it was so good. From Chicago I flew to Buenos Ares around 12 hours in first class. First class was sweet. I got a sweet dinner, watched a pretty amusing movie that I forgot the name of, and tried to sleep. I tried to whole day not to sleep so I would be tried on the plane so it was easier to sleep but that plan did not work at all. It still took me around an hour to find a comfortable position to sleep in.
Buenos Ares is pretty crazy. I guess you can compare it to New York but driving is crazier and it is a little shittier. Like take for instance last night when my brother and I walked around to find internet. We found a place and did some quick stuff and then walked around. Once we were stopped by this guy who had a card and he said ¨Happy Hour¨ so my brother was instantly drawn in. This guy walks us to the back of this mall and right from the outside I said to my brother that this place looks shitty. The second we walk in everyone gets all stoked and two girls greet us. From there we were both trying to get out of there but they made us sit down and talked to us, though they didn´t know much english. Either way, this place is like a hooker bar and it was pretty crazy to be there.
Just shit like that is all over. I´m not going to go into detail since that would take too long, but it´s just crazy. Everything is cheap here too. Well, most things. Like I have been on the internet was 13 minutes and it is .75 shmackers, which is like 25 cents. Divide everything by 3 pretty much works for currency conversion. I think I might get a soccer jersey as a souvenir. We´ll see about that.
Anyways, since internet is quite cheap I will probably be back on here at some point so I may update again from down here. If I don´t, things are great and I will talk to you all when I get back! ...Which is Saturday or Sunday I think. See ya!
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[02 Jul 2008|12:05am] |
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Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great. Everything's great.
It really is.
I just got back from seeing Fatter Than Albert. I wasn't planning on going to the show but I asked Chloe yesterday if she was going and she said she didn't know. Today she said that Brady and Johnna were not going so she wondered if I was going. I said I didn't know and then I said I would go if she did, so we both agreed to go. It was a lot of fun talking to her for a while. We played this game inside where we would take a step back from each other and then sort of trust fall onto each other. It was nice. Chloe had to leave at around 10:30 since she is going to NYC tomorrow morning. After she left I talked with Johanna for a little while until Fatter Than Albert was done. I left before the last band because I didn't really like them. It wasn't the headliner anyways so I was okay with peacing out.
I started working summer hours at the Church last Monday. I need to bring my cell phone so I can screw around with that. I've biked to work the past two days and I realized how out of shape I am. I mean, I am pretty fit but I guess I was pushing myself pretty hard, which is odd because I wasn't in a hurry.
I have been hanging out with more people lately, which is always good. It's finally nice to feel like I am wanted somewhere. It feels great that I'm hanging out with people that if I want to hang out with, I usually don't have to organize it myself. I have been hanging out with Marlee, Bishop, Nick, Dylan, and Caitlin.
I am loving summer right now. It just keeps getting better.
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Nothing is ever an accident.
Some of the best advice I've ever heard.
It's finally summer. Finally a time where I don't have to worry about anything.
I've had something to do every day of summer vacation so far, which has been every day since Friday, but still.
I hung out with cool people tonight and had a lot of fun.
But that still doesn't stop me from being in a bad mood right now.
Have you ever felt that you've been living your life wrong?
Not saying I don't love my life, because I love every second of it.
I just feel that I am missing out on something. I think I'm just lonely. What's new?
It's summer. I shouldn't feel like this.
Whatever. These last few days have been so great.
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